Report Card Time :(

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Now, for starters, I'm a sophmore and most of my classes are junior classes. So I got my report card. 3 A's. 3 B's. 1 C. I'm grounded for FOUR weeks. I have been trying my hardest, I can honestly say, yet my mom wants ALL A's. Apparently, my best ISN'T good enough. It just makes me mad because I tell her "I'm trying hard" and "Im doing my best" and she's like "well good. do better." It's just not fair in my opinion.

I mean, I love my mom. She's amazing. I understand that she's my mother and she wants the best for me and she doesn't want me to look back and regret not making better grades and yadda yadda yadda. But, I haven't had straight As since fourth grade. This is pretty dang unrealistic.

Last year, she wanted me to just make atleast B's, which is understandable. Honestly, I wasn't doing EVERYTHING i could have last year to keep my grades up there, and they weren't. But, A's...GRRRR. This whole chopping off my connection to the world after school was the catalyst to my depression last year.

This is SO frustrating. I have good grades. Considering the classes, I have great grades. Yet, I'm going to be grounded for atleast the next four weeks.

I'm switching out of my advanced classes...TOMORROW. In academic sophomore classes, I can breeze through. Yeah, I know that might sound like a bad decision, but I don't care. I am not gonna go through what I went through last year. And if she's not gonna accept my best in THESE classes, surely she'll accept my best in THOSE classes.

I'm just so discouraged and sad and angry and irritated.

But, I'm gonna keep praying. God has his reasons for everything. But...Maybe she'll have a change of heart. Or I'll all of the sudden become a perfect student. Heh.

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